My past

During the CG, sudd.. i just come out about my pass is miserable .. well. Now i flash back is really miserable. I really dunno how i survive till now. Honestly like what i said, u wont want to noe actually. But .. i guess there might be ppl that wanted to noe . so .. i just tell my past again.

I wont deny that I actually a good student and kinda top student when i was in Std 1 back to year 1991 in SRJK (c) Chen Moh. Was all the while ok ok .. till Std 4. I got into one of the best class in the school, which actually only 2 of it. I was happy, and my life changed. No sports is really killing me for the whole year, the teacher slap me infront of the class on my 1st day -- Reason is sweating. Make sense ? Teacher called up my mom for i never bring my book. Teacher called up my parents for i forget to do my hw for once. That is not the worst .. 1994 is my nitemare year which i still can clearly remember. Teacher throw my stuff from 2nd floor till ground.. u noe how hurting is that? I even get send to the headmaster office for not finishing my work .. which i actually start getting tired of the class. Every morning .. woke up.. i will just let out a long sigh. Goin to school in the morning is like walking on the green mile. The dismiss school bell is alwiz lighten me up, end of another nitemare. Somehow, i purposely fail .. and get kick out from that class .. at least i can go back to sports.

Parents was angry bout i got kicked out, so .. i show them what can i do, in every single subjects, i improved my marks by at least 20 than the previous exam. My dad promise me will get what i want, if i got the 1st in class. I got it neway.. but my parents claim it as "Luck" My feeling is like .. get thrown down from at least 100 feet above sealevel. Neway .. the faking signature really make my dad angry and reported to police. Cruel eh ? But i think .. it might be good for me.. maybe he just take it too serious.

As i said, i was against on Christianity, and yes i do cursed Christian, i do insulted Christian ... I was born in the enviroment which they told me bout Christianity is evil and more to satanic. No offence, cause I am a Christian by now. Running away from Cf during F1 .. and back to Cf during F3 on some personal purpose. ANd that leads me to christ .. the year that change my life again --29/12/1999. Accepted Christ.

There is alot of turning in my life.. is just like a roller coaster, up down, left right. Good or bad, i wont noe when i choose the road.. i will only noe, when there is no turning back. I wont post all bout my past neway .. wat pass is pass, what done is done.. keep on looking back wil slow down ur improvement. Keep on looking back will might give u a big fall. Is a very miserable sad life i haved last time.. tears and blood and broken heart is all left behind by now. Start moving, opening a new page of my life.. Coz i born again. I shall forget all the sad stuff ... i shall be think of happy things by now .. at least start now ..